Air Mata Hati
Air mata ini
Yang gugur bertahun-tahun selepas
Hati jadi dingin dan bicara jadi beku
Seperti tidak membawa maksud apa-apa lagi..
Kata cinta terus jadi rahsia antara kita
Terselindung dalam maksud yang paling layap
Rahsia yang disimpan dibawah agama
Rahsia seperti hal-halnya Tuhan
Baru kini aku ketahui, kau kerap mengirimnya di dalam
Setiap doa-doa yang
Tak pernah walau sekalipun dilalaikan..
Sekarang ini, diantara angin dan waktu
Aku basahkan tanah pusara dengan
Air mata dari hati
Yang sepatutnya mencurah
Segala rasa sayang rindu
Bertahun-tahun dahulu..
Hanya tanah merah ini sempat aku sentuh
Dan kamu tetap menjauh..
Bebahagialah..
Kini waktunya sudah sampai untuk aku pula menangis
Dan mengirim bait-bait cinta (dan nama)
Dari dalam doa sambil merelakan mata melepaskan nisan
Entah sampai bila..
Aku basah..
Aku rebah..
al-Fatihah buat Allahyarhamah Suraya Binti Kapten Dato’ Yahaya
(Disember 22, 1980 – Mac 16, 2009)
why u didnt tell me all that? why?? why u never tell me that she always ask u about me? do u know how much it hurt to know it now?
u know what along? i cant stop crying knowing that she never stop thinking of me while i am here assuming that she might have forgotten me. how silly am i?
i dont know how to say this. its not that i wanna put the blame on u but i think u are kind of cruel for keeping it as a secret for all this while. while she was still alive.
im sorry. but i miss her so much. i know, my tears wont bring her back and miracle will never happen. though i told u to move on, accept the fact that she’s gone, now im the one who cant accept it.
and u know why i didnt ask u for her number? it is because i am afraid of u. i never wanna get involve with ur personal life especially ur love life. but i just like her. so when u both broke up, i am so afraid to even say her name in front of u. thats why i rather keep my mouth shut.
well, there’s nothing much we can do now. just please dont stop pray for her.
thanks drop by blog saya. I miss arwah very much. Everyday teringat kat dia, may be weekend ni pergi ziarah family and kubur dia..damn!i miss her..really really miss her..
friend, email me ur hp number. i want to ask you about suraya. i once knew her too.